What caused me to shift in my faith?

My passion is to empower women to say yes to God because God uses small acts of obedience to lead to our ultimate purpose and passion.

I didn’t always feel this way.  But something changed approximately 10 years ago.  God shifted me in my faith.

God opened my eyes to two life-altering struggles I was facing.  I was at the proverbial “fork in the road”.  I want to share my “fork in the road”  moment with you, in case you are facing the same dilemma.

#1.  What now?  I woke up one morning and thought, What do I do for the next 40 years?  I realized I had a beautiful home, wonderful family, and fantastic career.  I had the “American Dream” I had coveted.   However, I couldn’t shake the notion that something was missing.  Folding laundry or putting people to sleep/giving anesthesia was falling short of providing the purpose, passion, adventure and satisfaction my soul was craving. I knew a bigger house, better career, or exotic vacation wasn’t the answer.  They seemed to be a temporary fix. They placated my soul long enough to distract me from dealing with the real issue.  The real issue was, Was I willing to believe God?  Jesus said, Whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me will find it.  (Matthew 15:25) I had been confronted by this verse 20 years prior, but I refused to believe it.  I refused to submit to it. I didn’t want to do life God’s way.  I wanted to do life my way.  My way got me the American Dream but an empty soul.  My way lacked purpose, adventure, passion, and satisfaction.  I had things on the outside but not on the inside.

I had the sneaking conviction more of God was what I was craving.

#2.  Why not me?  People I loved were dying or being diagnosed with cancer.  I sat by my grandmother’s hospital bed for nights and read to her as she began to transition from this life to the next.  Then my friends, women I related to, got diagnosed with cancer.  These were young, beautiful, seemingly health women, some with small children.  Women I had done life with or worked beside.  Nothing made these women different from me except their diagnosis. I began to wonder…Why not me?   Lord, do I get 10 more years? 20 years? 30 years? 

I had a decision to make.  What would I do with my life, the remainder of my days?

I chose God.  After refusing for twenty years to do life His way, I finally submitted to this verse.  I want to do life Your way.  Show me how Lord.

This is what my life God’s way has looked like. Over the past 10 years, God has led our family on a God-ordained calling to a water well in Uganda.  I have been on two medical missions to Africa and am schedule to lead Kenya Relief’s first Breast Cancer Screening Trip to Kenya March 2021.  I am diligently pursuing writing a book about the lessons God taught me to move me from saying no to yes to Him.  I want to save you the twenty years I squandered doubting God.

Interestingly, I still have a beautiful home, wonderful family, and fantastic career.  But I also have experienced peace, purpose, adventure, passion, and satisfaction for my soul.  It’s the abundant life Christ talked about.  My heart bursts with love for Him because I have lived His love for me.

Now, I have things on the outside and on the inside.

I wonder what your yes looks like?  What does your life God’s way look like?